Do I Exist?! - Wu Dabidos
“That’s quite a lot of money for me right now. Is the Wu Xing set good?” Toni
Actually I don’t have it. Do You want to go halves? It’s kind of a lot of money for me right now too. Dave
No! Hahaha Toni

Email is quite a strange way to keep in touch with someone hahaha Toni

You are an ahole Toni. Mocking someone for being a poor cos you’re a rich and hooking up with some rich boi bois he thinks he is friends with, when in fact none of them care about him at all. Jared, Tom, Sam, Tyrone, any other normie wannabe, close to me, you found who did you the way you’re used to while I fed your soul. This is common practice amongst toxic women I’ve read recently. You’d advocate for me to stay dumb like Chris Titford.

Good luck with being an ahole b. I never hurt you first & directly. You got together with Ty and his ex on mushrooms and when it hurt me I naturally responded to being told this by striking you with words in an email and then you manipulated my feelings and crushed me by saying it was all about me and my reaction to your heartless abuse of me.

I’m pai! I continually sought positive resolution through your admission of wrongdoing and you would ignore me until I felt regret and then strike me viciously with words when I was vulnerable again. You called me a “meany” cos you really didn’t care about the whole thing and said “I can’t do this anymore!”. Wtf were you “doing”? Entertaining an emotional retard? You never cared. When I said I deleted your phone number cos it’s harder to ignore and email is easier you laughed out loud cos you’d been ignoring me on your work phone for ages..!

I struggled to believe someone as gorgeous as you is such a drug/sex/money/power craving bad person. Tyrone told me this is who you are and that this culture forces you into it cos “you’re so pretty, otherwise you’d get torn apart!”. This broke my heart. You had a chance to be with a good man and you’ve squandered him to the Devil. You were spoiled with my whakaaro and whakapapa because you read my abuse on my face to be who I truly am like all wannabe cool women do.

You’ve been ignoring me for ages. Sometimes you wouldn’t reply for days. I am always respectful and I am a far better person than you. Tyrone realise he has messed up by taking you sexually nastily and to be high on methamphetamine and weed and ecstasy and magic mushrooms with you and telling me about it so he lied to your father David about me being like him. Like I’ve been harassing you. I never will do something like this. You cats are all black bodied and disgusting!

I got sent to mental health wards for over 4 months and it ruined the last 6 years of my life losing my research career and my lawn and garden businesses, my Personal mana, and my cheese packing and market selling job, as well as my regular funds to create the recorded work you barely paid anything for, and you’ve both had it ducking sweet. I trust you will get to experience how horrible you have created my life to be. “But you are everything good, Dave”. Toni.

“What’s that tattoo?” Dave “It’s the Sith code” Tyrone’s evil mate after I’ve given him my Jedi music. I get in my Hilux to go and they pull up in Tyrone’s Skyline listening to the “free” CD saying “it’s good bro!” We went to Pirates of the Caribbean I got us $8 tickets using my membership and I’m sure Toni laughed hard about it with him cos I am just a “stupid Maowree hanging out with the racists”.

Tyrone took my Tōhu of Pounamu off from around my neck in session when he had me out with the needles I felt the blessing go off from over me. He STOLE my tohu from a tōhunga this is how little he respects me. Stole my girl stole my tohu. Sure enough, that week he crashed his skyline. I offered him condolences on fb. Everyone worshipped him, he thinks he is some Lion King but he’s just another Hyena. He considered me crazy and an idiot.

He would go out for poor quality food with me me at Shaolin Kung Fu noodle after sessions (twice only on his way home) and shit on me like sam used to when I used to make an effort with them and last thing he said to me is: “I’ve got to go and get my proper food, healthy stuff now, this stuff is bad”. Tyrone what a terrible human being.

Toni’s brothers skateboard and I’m sure I own them. “What type of tricks did you do Dave?” Toni “Lots of amazing trick names” she laughed with silent glee. She’s found a master to destroy. She would always call me “Ivar” a mad black magician from her then favourite show Vikings.

She saw herself as Gislaug Ivars Mum and probably Ragnar was Tyrone as they were sleeping together and they were creating a “Frankenstein”. A “Quasimoto”. She would say about my legs being destroyed when a woman having sex with me would heal them and my schizoaffective completely,

She says she “know[s]” I have schizoaffective before I told her. Why did she do nothing??? Why did she make it worse. Why has she been bouncing from rich boi to rich boi I have something to do with since then?! Is it because I scorned her?????! I would say it is.

Bad c’s like Tyrone think I have no chance with pretty women like her but these broads love me! I’m an amazing human being and am an even better artist and musician! So they abuse my self-image and distort the perception we have of each other. Rich people are evil cos she can so easily lose me after I was so loyal to her.

Sex with those type of people would be robotic porn while I’m having my heart broken in Buchanan and she’s back in Auckland and I got zero visits from anyone with a heart. All I got is Jared coming in to tell me he’s been with her at a party and I can’t talk about the one I love when she’s not there. Fuck you Jared Bryant you Architects son plonker. All you rich bois would be nothing without your fathers status in society, my father is a writer so he “failed”. But he got Toni too so Fucken fick that btard too!

I deserve Toni. I love her and listen to her and look after her souls growth. I care for her. “I can’t come to your house. I’m too busy getting ready to go overseas” Toni “she doesn’t want to be seen with you” family friend in a bit of shock. Honestly being shunned by someone I love while she accepts evil creeps is unbearable. A great artist is treated as worthless. My ex women Lani and Frances are brown and black and cooler and you can’t accept me publicly! Shame on you.

She would dress in light blue when I went and saw her. She would have her hair done impeccably and look luxurious. We would always laugh together. She would stand tall and look at me. I had no ego every bad person at acupuncture school had crushed it out of me as had Te Whetū Tawera.

“We don’t want you to get hurt” Tyrone. This is an admission that he and Toni were regularly having sex together and he is her teacher at his clinic. That is an imbalance of power at the very least. “She’s good” Dave “she tries, she’s a dark girl. She doesn’t value herself” Tyrone. I hate this dude so much he took advantage of my sweet friend and her innocence and weaknesses. He had “a knowing about her” Rebecca from Remedy acupuncture K’Rd before she and her husband tried to kill me cos they thought I was high on lsd “are you on the bus?” Rebecca. Me “yes”.

May 6th 2018 a comment on Antonia’s fb says she was back in NZ by then and I didn’t get locked up until the 15th of the month after a Police chase. I could feel her hurting me with Ty. I got destroyed by their lust for each other in mutual masturbation. She never came clean. She lied saying it was all in my head and that it never happened, I’m saying all this to clear my name.

I don’t know her anymore she’s made me lose my careers and businesses all I do is create in solitude as no one cares about me anymore and I am so intensely hurt by all this betrayal. Toni is a rich woman, she has zero idea about the hardship of my life past and present she used to fetishise my struggle and feed on it by smoking methamphetamine and vaping thc with me in the room so I would talk more. She would steal my wairua and shit on me with others later.

The physiotherapist next door I was prebooked after her with would often cancel my appointment while I was in with Toni leave and go for food instead of meeting my appointment just saying he had to go this is how little I was respected at Be Well Acupuncture and physiotherapists Tyrone told me they were running an ACC racket and Brooke didn’t even do proper physio work no exercise just some pneumatic hammer bullshit. He came clean on the methamphetamine one day. Toni never stood up for me with Brooke. She had no spine but told me “I don’t want to be associated with you at all!”

I said how Tyrone is the man and women would want to be with him and it highlighted that Toni had left and he looked crushed like when I told Sam I would kill whoever stole my girlfriend from me. They looked sheepish in the moment but they think my words are without teeth so it doesn’t stop their behaviour. These guys need a visit from some big Freemasons connected to my Great Uncle Dan to talk to them about respecting good people and being good people. They almost made me take my life locked in a cell in Ōwairaka next to a Nazi Samoan ol’ mate who lost the plot when the warriors lost that time we all watched together. He’d been in jail for rape.

Roberto the OT moved me next to him even though I didn’t want to go there. None of these rich bois can survive what I have been through. It’s a network of Satanist losers worshipping their physical bodies with women whom are on the same programme. I saved Antonia Victoria Mathers from her whakapapa, and Katherine Allsopp-Smith, Lisa Divett, Frances Piper, Leilani Seaton, Rebecca Stirling, Amie Sapsford, Amanda Tune, Carlene Ridings, everyone I meet, you tell me it’s for me I do these things, but I done it for them. They all loved me but it lacked stickability cos they are shit people.

I am weakened by my Mum forcing me to be 100 percent a “good boy” all the time and to be sexually underdeveloped and inexpressive. All these bad guys use the fact that I can open girls up to having sex with me but then I leave them hanging so they then move to get the sex I earned out of them. I do the hard part in art and music and with women and leave them to the worst people to capitalise on them. Roseanna Adams would bring this loser to all my shows to make me jealous when I was performing. She even got me to stay in Avondale at her family house but didn’t sleep with me cos I wouldn’t sex her up in Milford when she tried to get me but said she had almost run her boyfriend over last week so I chose not to do anything. And she had a boyfriend what a weirdo, this world is weird, you're all fuct!

I also met Ruarangi McIntyre and Tāmaki two possessed brothers who died in the wards. Rua while I was there. You know nothing about true suffering because you only think about yourself. I had no phone for 2 months. Toni you’re unholy, how can you treat a good boiboi like he’s worthless boboi. Patricia Grace ‘Pōtiki’. “I loved you Anakin, you were my brother” - Obi Wan. Tyrone changed his gmail name to Smith and went crazy. I’m a Neo.

I find this whole thing a cautionary tale. I stay away from young girls and I stay away from the immoral people who steal my energy. Drug users. It’s hard being vulnerable in this society especially when the people who want to be close to you are easily manipulated by some callous scorned broad to destroy your mindframe out of spite!

You say I’m selfish for being like I am but when I told Tyrone "I love you, who you are as a person." He tried to crush me afterwards saying “That’s sweet”. Nah b. It’s good. You are a horrible pair. He tried to put me down for wanting to email you because I care about you. Because “you like her” acting like you never wanted to hear from me. I know you are in love mate. Nicola Simpson pretty much told me I have broken your heart, and it return you’ve broken mine multiple times and hurt me gigantically just so you can get the words from my pen and read them on your gmail and laugh. I can now tell that most care nothing about the true good actors and we should smash you in the face.

Toni would laugh at me every time I would repeat one of Tyrone’s lies which I had believed to her, and then she would begin lying to me too. He told me I didn't have on my fucken foot anymore, I've got a bunion hardcore you stupid fucking fuckhead, drive of a cliff, drive off a brick wall with my fucken Dad you cunt